Resurrection in Everyday Life: "A Lawyer Who Becomes a Journalist"

Resurrection in Everyday Life:

“A Lawyer Who Becomes a Journalist”

Adherents and observers of Christianity mostly reflect upon resurrection and related themes during Lent.  During the forty-day period preceding Easter Sunday, they meditatively consider Christ’s Passion Narrative in which He turns decisively toward Jerusalem where His ministry culminates with an ironic plot twist.  The perennial spiritual practice of denying a personal enjoyment informally mimics the crucifixion.  Foregoing delights of food, shopping, television, entertainment and quite possibly sex frees time and resources for mental insight and internal revelation.  Utilizing spiritual disciplines of fasting and prayer yield increasing ability to listen to one’s inner voice and intuition.  Greater awareness of character defects possibly discards patterns of consciousness and behavior that undermine personal growth.  Hopefully, these newly acquired lessons morph into new patterns of happy, joyous and rewarding daily living.  Lent fosters death and burial of counterproductive habits through self-denial.  Resurrection to a healthier and progressive personality occurs on Easter.

Fascinatingly, disciples can experience resurrection in everyday life.  A horrific situation is not necessary to realize the power of Christ’s teachings.  Discerning your purpose and mission in life may require resurrection.  Often, external pressure of parents, siblings, extended family and close friends proves formidable.  Limited self-acceptance and character incapacities allow their voices to reverberate within the chambers of a person’s heart, mind and psyche.  Appeasing the well-intentioned suggestions and dreams of loved ones can lead to existential death. Some parents live precariously through their children; they expect their children and even grandchildren to achieve their unfulfilled dreams and goals.  Families take great pride in the success of relatives particularly if celebrity ensues.  However, if the carrier of these ambitions does not genuinely possess them within his or her heart of hearts, he or she will experience a glacial but steadfast internal death.  Each day, more vitality and joy will seep out of his or her life.  Of the one hundred and sixty-eight hours in a week, each worker minimally allocates a third of that time to employment and vocation.  It stands to reason that such a substantial commitment of time, intelligence, emotion and talent demands a task that yields more than a biweekly paycheck.  Passion and pure love of what a person does transform any job into sheer joy.  An adage offers, “If you love what you do, you will never work a day in your life.”  Still, it is vitally and psychologically critical that everyone makes an affirmative and fundamental decision as to how he or she will contribute to the betterment of humankind through a vocation.

I heard the story of a woman’s resurrection at a book release.  Captivatingly, she shared a brief version of her transition from pursuit of a legal career to a rewarding calling as a journalist.  I will identify her as Karen; respecting her desire for anonymity.  She had to reject the dream that her mother, family and community had for her.  This circle of family and friends who dearly love Karen and desired the best of life for her thought she should become an attorney.  Growing up in the Brownsville neighborhood of Brooklyn, New York during the height of the crack cocaine epidemic in the mid-1980s and 1990s, Karen managed to escape addiction and teen pregnancy.  She maintained academic excellence despite her surrounding challenges and temptations.  Her abstinence and achievements earned the admiration of her family and friends.  Additionally, and rightfully, Karen obtained admission to a prestigious mid-Atlantic research university.  Her circle of loved ones took great pride in her college acceptance as she was an outlier who embodied their dreams and hopes.  They considered her forthcoming matriculation to college as the beginning of her legal career.

Karen deeply felt their collective aspirations for her through the prism of her very close relationship with her mother.  A veteran member of the New York City Police Department, Karen’s mom bragged to her colleagues that her daughter would one day become an attorney and possibly a prosecutor, affectionately called a police officer with a law degree.  To facilitate this dream, Karen’s mother took the bus to and from work; she forewent the purchase of a car, a staple and status symbol amongst police officers.  This act of self-denial enabled Karen’s mother to send a monthly allowance of four hundred dollars ($400) during her collegiate years.  Her mother resolved that her personal sacrifice was worth the investment in her daughter’s goal of passing the New York bar exam and practicing law.

At college, Karen chose to major in political science and minor in English.  Therein, she discovered her love of writing.  She knew internally and intuitively that she wanted to be a journalist.  However, Karen did not know how to tell her mother, family and community.  The end of her college years came and Karen graduated with magna cum laude honors.  Maintaining her silence, Karen earned admission to the law school of her university.  During the summer following her graduation, Karen nurtured her love of writing while treading her increasing anxiety as her entrance to law school approached.  Further repressing the dormant but live volcano in her heart, that fall, Karen left Brooklyn to begin her first year of law school. Feeling great angst, she participated in the annual pinning ceremony for matriculants.  A longstanding and revered tradition at this school, graduates and luminaries in the legal profession returned to campus each fall to put a pin on the lapel of each new student.  Interestingly, that solemn commissioning ceremony was the site of Karen’s epiphany.

Karen knew that she had to withdraw from law school.  She concluded that it was unfair of her to retain her scholarship when some other student could utilize it.  Karen met with the dean of the law school.  In response to hearing Karen’s summary of her emotional, mental and psychological journey to an existential realization that she wholeheartedly wanted to be a journalist, the dean inquired whether she was pregnant.  It took ten minutes to convince the dean otherwise.  Karen asked for a one-year leave of absence with full retention of her scholarship were she to return.  She and the dean agreed that Karen would spend the year in journalism school.  She would practically explore the dream that burned brilliantly within her consciousness and heart.  Karen, in her affirmative meditations, resolved, “God, if I am admitted to journalism school, then I will become a journalist.  If not, I understand You mean for me to return to law school even if I don’t understand.”  Her mother took a few days from her job and traveled to Karen’s law school to assist her in moving after her withdrawal.  In the return car ride, Karen finally revealed her heartfelt dreams to her mother.  As she recounts this story, Karen nearly burst into tears as she recalls her mother’s incredible loving response.  “Above all else, I love you.  We will figure this out.”  Soon thereafter, Karen entered journalism school.  She subsequently accomplished her dream and personal ambition.  Currently, she works for a longstanding national women’s magazine with widespread domestic and international circulation.

The story of this resurrected journalist who died existentially as a first-year law school offers encouragement and hope.  Karen’s withdrawal from law school was in the words of the title of Christian clinical psychologist, Henry Cloud’s, well received book, was Necessary Endings.  The complete title, Necessary Endings: The Employees, Businesses and Relationships that All of Us Have to Give Up in Order to Move Forward, captures Karen’s inward journey of self-acceptance and self-determination.  As she discovered the internal resources to differentiate herself and her aspirations from those of her mother and family.  She willingly embraced the death of the idea and image that the legal profession was the only reliable pathway for her to succeed and gain respectability.  This decision necessitated burying the good intentions and well wishes of other people. 

Reminiscent of Christ’s Passion in which Jesus of Nazareth humbly and boldly embraces crucifixion, death and entombment, Karen equally received the non-negotiable reality of terminating the expectations of other people.  Had she acquiesced, she would have entombed herself to an unfulfilling professional life wherein purpose and joy decompose within her heart like a decaying body.  Wisely, instead, Karen chose to entomb herself to divest herself of any patterns of behavior that impeded her spiritual progress and personal development.  She chose to die and await rebirth.  Her hard-won willingness to say Yes to herself on the day of the pinning ceremony was a proactive response to God’s graciously given epiphany.  It allowed her resurrection from being an unhappy and unfulfilled first-year law school student to becoming a journalist living in purpose.

Karen concluded her sharing with a loving and enduring exhortation for the audience.  “Follow your heart.”